Wednesday, July 11, 2007
it is not my fault,
that my tears won't stop,
flowing down my cheeks,
running down my face.
Can i know the truth,
is the love, still there,
can i have it there,
through it all, i'll bear.
darkfossil
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VoDkA @ 8:04 PM
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Monday, July 02, 2007
You give me those words,
you never keep.
You tell me those lies,
that make me weak.
You capture my heart,
and tore it apart.
How can you take, away, my heart.
darkfossil
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VoDkA @ 11:28 AM
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Sunday, July 01, 2007
hm.. so i got wad i want now... my hall place... a job during this period of time... argh.. seriously wad do i still lack man? hahaa... sometimes i just feel blessed that even tho i dun have the best of the world, god has not really been unfair to me... in certain individuals, i found true frens whom i know will save me when i am dying and who i will risk the world to protect...
well.. maybe in life we just got to be satisfied you know... and nt always looking for comparisons... when will comparisons end? wads the point of living in delusion and lies... accept things for wad they are and work to improve on what u have... at least be glad, u r who u r, and not who u r nt... =D
darkfossil
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VoDkA @ 1:12 PM
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Sunday, June 10, 2007
It has been an intriguing and strange week for me.. for once i immersed myself in a culture and religion, and astonishingly, the finds to date are what words can never described.
It's been rather long i've been fighting a lone battle on all fronts, including with myself... The battle has worn me out to a point that i felt like giving up.. so many mistakes, so many scars to remind myself of, and at the time when all my hopes were faint and everything seems like a lost cause, i found strength in everyone around me...
I was pulled out from the depths of self-depreciation and taken back into the real world.. thanks so much for everything and everyone.. including You, though i cant seem to see and feel You at the moment, i know someday, you won't leave me alone and lonely, and that You will come and show yourself to me if i want enough...
It has been encouraging knowing people thinks my works are nice... haha! cmon lor.. they are just bullshits nonsense when the emo Lionel takes over... haha! anyway, i've gotten my inspiration for the next song... "One Last Night" it'll be known... shall start my work on it and let this song just bring me back to the real life... This song will depicts what i feel my heart has gone through.. totally no lies... and it shall depict me walking back onto the path and not walk on marsh anymore..
Lalalalalaa....
My buddy has been upset lately and somehow, it affects my mood too... it's saddening to see her carrying the burden alone, and i want to be there to share that load with her... in fact, if can, i want to carry all the load... i know i can do that, i will have no problem with the load, but sometimes, some things are better left sort out by the person him/herself without interference... for that, i will not interfere, but walk beside you, and if u ever stumble from that load, i will be there to hold you back up, and put you straight... you will not walk this path alone... cos on my words, you have my company, on this journey...
And for once, my prayers were answered... i finally heard from her... it has been what i had prayed for daily... on the bus, before i sleep... i will always sneak a fast prayer... that i still want u in my life... not as wad we were before, but a fren... what's once precious, will never not be precious... the place u occupy in my heart, can never be replaced like a lost jigsaw puzzle piece... but sometimes, this puzzle might no longer be your favourite anymore... and u look to other puzzles that can open ur heart further... but this portion of the heart, has been inscribed and pasted with history of you that will never be replaced or removed... say me greedy or wad, i have heard from you, and now i want more, i want your frenship...
wad a long post... haha.. been so long since i find any thoughts in me to write about... hopefully my next song's ideas will come fast and furious.. ahha! =D
darkfossil
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VoDkA @ 9:04 AM
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
NATALIE LYRICS"Love You So"
Ooh Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh
From the minute that you got my attention
I was taken and I have to mention
I was trying to not let it show
But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go
From the way that you came right to me
Looking all hot with the style that threw me
No one would've ever known it
You would be the one who take this heart and hold it
You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me
Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah Do you know it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
You can san say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that girl is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding
You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me
Ooh, I love you so Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
Please know this I'll always be right here
And you don't have to look
Nowhere else babe
Don't think for a minute This love will change
Oh you should know that
Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know
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darkfossil
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VoDkA @ 1:27 PM
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Your most likeable trait: LOYALTY
No one has ever said Cancerians are easy to understand. You may appear gentle, kind, sympathetic, and a patient listener. Then someone asks for advice, and you turn cranky, snappish, and appear to be completely indifferent to anyone's problems but your own. You may wallow in self-pity and complain endlessly about how mistreated you are by the world. Turn another page of the calendar and suddenly you are back being helpful, solicitous, ready to do anything asked of you.
What's your secret? Cancer, which is ruled by the Moon and has water as its element, can be likened to the shifting tides of the oceans. Like the tides, Cancer is the sign of powerful forces moving under the surface. That surface, however, is quite difficult to penetrate, for Cancerians tend to build up an elaborate array of defenses to hide their deep feelings and extremely sensitive.
Complex, fragile, unpredictable, temperamental, the typical Cancerian needs a constant support and encouragement. You want desperately to be loved and approved of but resent needing approval so badly. When you get what you need, you give the best you have in return. Those who make you feel secure command your undying loyalty. When you really care for someone there is nothing anyone can say about that person that will make the least bit of difference. You have a real blind spot when it comes to seeing a failing in those you love.
You tend to be a worrier and a silent brooder. People may pour out their hearts to you, but the flow never goes in the other direction. You guard your secrets well.
If offended, you do not strike back directly. Your method of retaliation is to sulk, and it is often very effective. The technique is somewhat like being whipped to death by a dozen strands of boiled spaghetti.
Cancer's symbol, the crab, has a hard outer shell that protects soft, vulnerable flesh underneath. The same is true of Cancerians, who are often crusty, gruff and grumpy, but possess a proverbial heart of gold. Beneath your tough exterior you are a sentimental softie who will make any sacrifice for someone in need. If someone asks for a favor, your first reaction will probably be no, but the final answer is always yes. You should be judged not by what you say but by what you do.
You are possessive. Anyone who becomes part of your life will never again be entirely free. You try to stay in touch with friends, ex-lovers, former spouses, business associates, persons you knew as children. If you let anyone go out of your life, it is unwillingly and never completely. This reflects your preoccupation with the past. An aura of nostalgia dwells about you; the events and people of bygone years continue to inhabit your memory and usually grow dearer to you as time goes by. You are devoted to family and home and continue to believe in the old fashioned idea that marriage is forever—even if the events in your own life contradict this.
It is hard to deceive you, for you can spot the tiniest nuances of behavior. In fact, you are almost psychic in your intuitions. A photographic memory added to intense powers of observation makes you extremely canny about divining other people's inner motivations.
Cancerians are crab-like in their indirect approach to an intended target. Observe a crab moving on a beach and you will notice its strange sidewise movement toward a goal. People born under the sign of the Crab never take the direct approach. You step to one side, then step to the other side and sometimes go completely around. But you get where you intend to go.
If channeled in the right direction, your enormous sensitivity can be a greta source of strength. Once you overcome your shyness and touchiness and master your turbulent emotions, your intellect and imagination enable you to become a success in almost anything you undertake. Contrary to the impression you often give, you can be shrewd and canny in business. Cautious, conservative in your approach, you possess an antenna that quickly gauges public taste and opinion and senses new trends in the making. This instinct for business combined with imagination is visible in such famous fashion designers as Bill Blass, Oscar de la Renta and Pierre Cardin.
Cancer people hold on to money as tenaciously as they do to everything else that belongs to them. To you money spells security, yet no matter how much wealth you accumulate you never feel really secure. That is true of your emotional security also. A Cancerian never gets enough love and approval, you always need more. it is very easy to fall in love with this loyal, devoted, affectionate, and protective Moon-child.
darkfossil
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VoDkA @ 7:16 PM
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Thursday, May 10, 2007
Eh!!! what's up with my bloggeR? hahaa... after so long dun tell me my blogger is screwed up??? tsk...
oh well.. finally... an off day... i feel like lethargic lately.. like im gonna work myself to death... haha~! cant wait for my contract to finish so i can slack off for a mth or so...
wads up with this world seriously... haha... sometimes things turn out so bad u cant seem to find a remedy solution for it.. well well, nw i know why everyone is so into developing a time machine... to rights the wrongs we had done... but is that the right way to approach it?
seems like i got the answer inside myself.. i'll nvr look for a time machine.. wad's past is past.. we learn from it.. i learnt alot.. i learn to cherish.. oh well.. i learn to nt be so retarded.. well, a fool before doesnt mean i am one now.. if u're reading, all i want is just a simple frenship whereby i can fall on u for support and u can on me too.. really hope dat you can understand.. i know it's selfish of me to think that way, after hw i've hurt u before... i believe no words can describe hw apologetic i am... maybe someday u'll see, that i will always be dere for u as a fren when u nd someone to hold u up... maybe..
sianzation.. gg to work everyday.. haaa... raised ur hand those who think i look like a stoner/slacker!!! u all ah.. im no slacker ok! haha.. tho i look like one at work, with my small eyes and all.. =PP i am very hardworking one k! haha.. just that after all these times, i learn to just sit back and do things as it is.. why give urself so much headache rite? haaa.. life's too short to be bothered everyday... just cheer up.. and be nonsense like me!!! ok.. im nt 24/7 nonsense... haha.. i can be serious too lor.. no wonder jamie says i am very contradictory.. i just did it again... hahah!
so glad i nvr go js's hse yest.. or else will be another opportunity to get drunk.. must really cut down on it.. Motto!! Quit drinking.. Start slacking.. =PP
One mth plus to end of contract... counting down... 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 ...... ~!@$#@%$%^*&^(*()(
darkfossil
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VoDkA @ 9:32 AM
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